I need your light.

Noong una, akala ko ay naghahanap lang ako ng rebound, ng isang taong sasalo sa akin noong ako ay malungkot pero hindi, hindi rebound ang nakita ko eh, TL TL TL, True Love, lol haha ngayon lang ako nakakilala ng isang tulad nya, ngayon lang ako napunta sa ganitong sitwasyon. Meron naman kaming similarites pero iba eh, mas marami ang pagkakaiba namin, hmmmm she complements me, kung anong wala sa personality ko ay nasakanya at vice versa, ang saya lng namin pag magkasama kami. Iba tlga s’ya sa lahat nang nakilala ko, iba tlga s’ya. ewan ko ba. gustong gusto ko s’ya, sana nman may pag asa ako sknya, pero torpe ako eh, sakanya lang tlga ako natorpe at hndi ko tlga alaaaaam kung bakit :( haha grabe sana mutual ang feelings namin. I like her, and I think I am falling in love with her, pero hnd ko tlga masabi. natotorpe ako :( Sana naman masabi ko na sknya although pinapakita ko na at pinaparamdam, pero sana masabi ko na ding gusto at mahal ko na syaaaaaaaaaaa

Is looking for a rebound a sign of moving on? I really don’t know. Damn. I met this girl, I feel like I like her. Does this mean I’m really into her? or am I just looking for a rebound? :\ oh well. This is not good DAMN!

How to evaluate yourself if you really moved on? Damn it is so hard. You feel free to act single, mingle with others but, in the end of the day, when you are about to sleep and close your eyes, you will always think of how perfect you were when your are with the one you loved before. I guess, I am done with the first part, that is acceptance, accepting what happened but the next step is a lot harder than the first one. In this stage, I should stop thinking about her. Oh well this is so freaking hard, and it is killing me. Damn!

alam mo ba ung feeling ng bago ka matulog s’ya iniisip mo, naghihintay ng text nya, at pagkagising mo naluha ka nlng at naghihintay pa rin ng text nia :(

Why am I feeling like this, why? Why am I so affected? Why can’t I move on? Why can’t I understand? Why? It seems so unfair, really, its unfair.

My best friend called me today, she had a problem. She told me all of it. I listened. I was shocked to know that we have the same problems. She started to cry and I was like, “tss anung gagawin ko, anong sasabihin ko. ganito din ang mga problema ko at hindi ko din alam ang mga solusyon dun.” after a few moment. I started to talk about her problems. I shared some advice, something that will comfort her, some words that she may like to hear, then, I just realized, who am I to give her such advice? how did I came up with those solutions eh ung mismong sarili ko nga hnd ko maayos, maybe I know the answers to the questions, maybe I know the solutions to the problems pero bakit gnun? ni isa hnd ko magawa, ganun na ba ako kaduwag para harapin ang mga problema ko? baka kailangan ko rin ng taong tutulong sakin. tao na magbibigay ng lakas ng loob, at sasabihing kaya ko ‘to.

Will it be sweet to write a song dedicated to your love one? A song that tells the story between you and her, a song to show how much you are thankful to have her in your life, and a song that will show how deep is your love for her. Tell me, will it be sweet? :’(